Q. 28th of June, 1994. You will search for the identity of the entity referred to as Alfred Bradford Jensen III.
A. We have this.
Q. You will relate a significant incarnation for this one referred to as Alfred Bradford Jensen III.
A. We see for this one to be in female form within the land area that is referred to as France. We see that this one was schooled in a private school as a child. We see that this caused her to be boarded away from home. We see that this began at about eight or nine years of age; after that point this one had a private tutor. We see that this one's family was wealthy within this period of time and we see that this one was intended to not only gain an education but to gain the social graces and elegance that was expected of this one.
We see for her to enjoy the schooling in the sense that there was much enjoyment of this one's friends and also of the learning that was taking place in regards to her social skills and to her maturity. We see, however, that this one did not enjoy the academic learning and that there was much loneliness in regards to being apart from the family. We see that this one did not understand why she could not learn the same things at home and why she had to move away from the family. We see that this caused there to be some bitterness and resentment upon her part towards the family.
We see that once she was finished with her schooling and went back to the home, that there was such a feeling of alienation that she was not sure that she belonged there anymore. We see that even though she had been home on vacations and at visits that it had become a different place and did not really seem to be hers anymore. We see that she did not feel that she fit and we see that this caused much confusion in her emotions and much unwillingness to become close to her family again. We see that she felt somewhat separated from them and did not really know what to do. We see, therefore, that she had focused upon building an outer image of the use of her social graces, of the use and expression of her maturity and what she had learned and did not outwardly confront or show her feelings in any way.
We see that this developed a kind of character and habit on her part of the air and image that she wanted to express but this did not place her in a position of being able to communicate or build relationships. It was because of the image that she portrayed that she married the man that chose her for his wife and that she chose to marry, chose her because of who she thought she was because of who she portrayed herself as being. We see that this caused much difficulty later in their relationship because as they became closer and lived together and were in a close environment together and he began to recognize some of her real feelings about things and as some of her emotional confusion and emotional anger and lack of poise there was a not knowing of how to deal with it because the woman that he thought he married was quite poised, was very self secure, was very confidant, and was very knowledgeable and always knew how to handle herself in situations, but the woman that he began coming to know was quite insecure, was somewhat angry and was afraid of being close with people and afraid of being hurt. We see that this caused much difficulty and emotional difficulty between this one and her husband.
We see that to some extent, she learned to work through it, but we see that she did not ever really learn to become the person that she expressed herself as being. We see that this always caused her to feel somewhat belittled in the husband's eyes and did affect the way that she was able to honestly express herself with him.
We see that this one did have three children within this period of time, two of them sons. We see that she was referred to as Bianca Elise Mataya. This time period would be referred to as 1600's AD to 1700's.
We see that although this one was qualified to do other things, this one did work within the home in the adulthood life and only extended herself past the home in social occasions and social endeavors. We see that this one did do some volunteer work, which did help to build a kind of a community hospital.
We see that this one did withdraw from the physical at 55 years of age. We see that this one's death was due to congestive heart failure. This is all.
Q. Very well. What is the significance of that lifetime to this present lifetime?
A. We see within the present period of time that this one has had some difficulties in the earlier part of life that caused this one to feel separated and alienated from those whom this one loved. We see that this one has difficulty in reconciling this and in understanding many of the factors that were in the earlier part of the life. We see this to be affecting this one's present life and circumstances.
We see that this one has difficulty in really allowing people to be close to the self and in communicating with them. We see that this one has a tendency to build an outer self image and to portray that to others, which is really the person that this one would like to be and not actually what this one feels that he is. We see that there is a need to begin becoming honest with this self about how he truly feels and about how he really regards himself. We see that there is a need to express his real feelings at the present period of time and use that expression and communication of what he really feels and what he really is to begin causing himself to become the person that he wants to become. There is a need for this one to begin to learn the difference and to separate acting confidant and really working through his emotions and becoming confidant. We see that the other aspects of this one's self image that he wants to have as a part of the identity also need to be worked with in the same way, but these things can only become a part of this self if this one will express what is present and honestly move toward those things, rather than trying to hide this one's hurts and trying to hide what this one really feels from others in order to try to live up to the image which he has put out. There is a need to honestly deal with how he sees himself and with his self image so that he can cause it to change and be what he wants it to be. This is all.
Q. Very well. Relax.